...or a conversation about it!
This is how my course started today…Paolo Knill, the founder of Expressive Arts and my mentor, playing his grand piano as we stretched, danced, or did what we wanted (he does this everyday, three times a day, when we have him as a teacher). For me it was a moving meditation. (in both senses of the word) As I stretched, the idea, “What if love just is,” crept in. What if I don’t attach any meaning to love. I take it down to the phenomenon, rather than conceptualizing it by attaching it to forever. What if love just is, and then that love is brought to relationship. Rather than looking to the relationship for love?
I am not exactly sure what it all means, but at the time that I had the thought it felt new and exciting! Or one that I had accepted in a new way. Which then of course leads me to need to define love. What is it, for me? I gave myself the homework today to look at my personal philosophy around love and relationship. What have been my guiding ideas in the past, and are they still in tact today or have they changed? Or do they want to change.
One thing I know for sure, this is a very exciting time for me in my life. The vision of the work that I had with my mother when she was dying: working with teens using the arts, came true and it feels fabulous. I am here in this amazing land, studying with some amazing people from all around the world. And I have these great questions and wonderings coursing through my heart and veins. More questions are coming than answers, but I think that is the fun part, a feeling of being totally alive! Here are a couple more questions that came up:
What is the difference between “being in a relationship” and “being in relationship”?
Do we long to be in A relationship, and then when we get it, avoid being “in relationship” in that relationship? (Is that a conundrum? Say that 3 times fast!) Thank goodness for questions because then I have something to write about tomorrow!
This was a great day! Getting to watch my mentor, the master in this field, at work; connecting in conversation with friends from all over the world where things are so different yet so similar; sharing good food with those friends; having the evening free (to balance my checkbook, paint, talk to Shea(!!!!!) and other friends via iChat and Skype; and now, lay my head to rest, earlier than usual. Life is good. Thanks for reading!
Stay cool, don’t worry about being a fool, live the biggest life you can! (Yikes, did I say that?!)
What is the difference between “being in a relationship” and “being in relationship”?
Do we long to be in A relationship, and then when we get it, avoid being “in relationship” in that relationship? (Is that a conundrum? Say that 3 times fast!) Thank goodness for questions because then I have something to write about tomorrow!
This was a great day! Getting to watch my mentor, the master in this field, at work; connecting in conversation with friends from all over the world where things are so different yet so similar; sharing good food with those friends; having the evening free (to balance my checkbook, paint, talk to Shea(!!!!!) and other friends via iChat and Skype; and now, lay my head to rest, earlier than usual. Life is good. Thanks for reading!
Stay cool, don’t worry about being a fool, live the biggest life you can! (Yikes, did I say that?!)
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